I am a very empty girl. the cliche angel and devil are living inside of me and forcing every ounce of energy out of me. I want to sleep all day, and all night I lay awake and think of times that weren’t so hard, less complicated.
This shame lives inside of me and is slowly eating me alive
MONSTERS
I wish I could say that I am better, maybe not, maybe it won’t be okay. the doubt swallows me and leaves me bitter and acidic.
I want the familar, I want to hurt myself.
this pain is real
I AM REAL DAMMIT
I should of died that night
No you shouldnt have died that night. You are worth more than anything and worth more than to scar yourself. You are real but you dont need the pain to know this. I am healed now and have not SI for two months. I dont have the desire to hurt myself anymore i dont feel the need to. You shouldnt have to SI yourself to know you are real and alive. I have found so much more joy when i dont SI. If you need someone to talk to email me lilfinepug64@yahoo.com. try and stay safe.