I ran up to the drugstore the other day with my friend to buy diapers for my daughter. I walked past an aisle and my eyes found a tool. It was the strangest feeling and my heart jumped when I saw it, almost like someone had told me they loved me for the first time. I couldn’t escape my friend long enough to buy it which was probably a blessing at the time, but I just went back and bought it the next day. I haven’t used one yet, but somehow knowing they’re there makes me feel a bit better.
I can hardly get out of bed to take a shower. I don’t know what’s wrong with me and why I seem to keep wanting to hurt myself. It’s not like I have a horrible life, just a frustrating one..
hey i know the feeling don’t worry. e-mail me and i can explain..
I do feel disappointed with myself after each time I injure, but it’s almost as if I zone out while I’m doing it. My mom tells me it’s a cop-out and that I know exactly what I’m doing, but I feel as if something takes over my mind.
I hope you don’t use them because it will only make you sadder in the long run. I’m in counselling at my school and haven’t injured in over a week. I would really love to be fully recovered and stop altogether. But…I can’t seem to bring myself to take the tool out of my wallet. I feel better knowing it’s there if I need it even though I would be really sad and disappointed if I use it.
to be honest
i would have done the same thing
but kellie is right i will just make u so much more upset
and make u want to do it more and more.
sweetie
i doesnot only hurt you but your friends around you
i know that it may not seem like that world is not right
but in the end everything is just being put in place.
if that makes since.
if you need someone to talk to
email me
emo663@gmail.com
futureairforcegirl@gmail.com
okay.. either one works
i know what u mean
like about life
my life is better than most peoples’
and i feel the neet to do it too
everyday
every sec of every day
kinda annoying and scarry actually
~d
I think anyone in the world can do it, no matter how good their life is. I have a good life too, but something happens in my head and I just feel better once I SI. I haven’t injured in a few days now, but it’s all I think about.