I  I’m losing it today because it’s a very bad day. I had to do something that was the right thing to do, but it was the hardest thing I had do. But instill of me feeling good about the decision i made, why do i feel like crap? Now I feel like I have to continue to make myself feel better. I know what i did was for the best, but i don’t feel that why.

 I want to be able to tell you all and my self job well done for being safe for one month. but I can’t because i don’t know how to control my self. I feel like I’m slipping deeper and deeper. Can some one tell me how to beat this?