i want to do it so bad, school is just stressing me out people stare at me like i am a loser a FREAK someone who shouldnt be alive. i feel dirty and alone. i feel like God has even left me in the cold. i have no one to go to.. i am trying to stop but i cant tell no one and the people i trusted with my secret is blabbing to the whole school so everyone is looking at me differently. my friends keep stuff from me BOYS dont want to date me. IM SO LOST i want the tool but i cant

so one please any advice.?