for once in my life i want to fix things myself i want to pick myself up and i want to try and stop doing stuff. ( i really cant say the word) and people have to get everyone else invovled when its really no one BUSINESS on what i do right.

if i want to im not going to die it just takes the pain away just for a little bit right
i do not know what to do i want help but scarded that people will treat me different i dont know..

i crave it so bad.. i feel like a FAILURE mistake MESS UP i just feel like i am nothing but crap.
my dad says im crap and so does my family they do not think i can do it NO ONE DOES what other choices do i have..???

i need help