for once in my life i want to fix things myself i want to pick myself up and i want to try and stop doing stuff. ( i really cant say the word) and people have to get everyone else invovled when its really no one BUSINESS on what i do right.
if i want to im not going to die it just takes the pain away just for a little bit right
i do not know what to do i want help but scarded that people will treat me different i dont know..
i crave it so bad.. i feel like a FAILURE mistake MESS UP i just feel like i am nothing but crap.
my dad says im crap and so does my family they do not think i can do it NO ONE DOES what other choices do i have..???
i need help
My family treats me the same way. were everything is your fault, and no matter what you do, its always ur fault. So its always going to seem like your the mess up. I started ignoring everything my family said to me and about me. Its really hard to ignore it, i know. It took me a long time to do so. Yes you may mack mistakes, but who doesnt??? i mean come on we’re all human, its wat we do, just learn from those mistakes and say to yourself,
“They are wrong”. itll take time to believe but after a while, ull now what they are saying is not who u are.
i agree so much, its so annoying being looked at as crazy if people find out you do it.. and people always just make jokes about it and be like great im going to go injure myself now ! which is so not cool, honestly, it makes me soo mad. and it also upsets me how its so stereotyped as the emo, like depressed shy kids who do it, im so prep and no one would ever think i do it. and i dont think its right to have to constantly be hiding your scars in fear that someone will see them.. i constantly wear like sweaters just so no one will see.. and if people do see and make a comment its so stressful.. i havent SI in a while because i went to therapy and stuff. but i feel like my scars will be there forever and its just something i hate.
and babe im sure youre not a mess up, dont listen to your parents, its hard to believe but theyre wrong.. just believe in yourself and try to rebuild your life, get some really good friends who care about you, and everything will eventually fall into place, i promise
i know exactly the feeling that you are. when roumers got out with me everyone acted like they carred. people were asking me abou it and its just none of the business cuz frankly they dont care and i know that.
my dad is also emetionally abusive. he has been calling me fat sence the day i have turned 7 i was always the X child when my “star” brother showed up.
he has always been the child who my family thought was going somewhere and that i was stck. he is an A student and a sports star.
i resent my whole family and it makes me want to SI because they are never listning to me like i have nothing important to say!
i know about the intense “want” to SI to just see the bodily fluid and feel the relief. ur not alone =)