My hands were shaking the last time I had S.I. I knew it wasn’t because of the injuries on my arms but because I had realized what I was doing. Since then I have realized how hard it is to actually stop completely…including thoughts about it. Thats what’s been the hardest for me…dealing, but in the same way, I can’t help but feel extremely proud when I don’t let it control me.
I feel the same way now when I slip up. I realize logically what I am doing to myself and has started to freak me out. I start shaking and feeling sick after I do it because I know it isn’t the right the thing to do in the long run. FINALLY, I am beginning to see past the present moment!