I guess this is me. I am a 16 year-old injurer. I have been this way since 6th grade and have good long periods where I do not crave the isolation and release that injuring gives to me. But I often relapse and that is where I am at now.

Recently my boyfriend of 8 months and I have broken up. He was what kept me strong. He was the only thing that kept me from not injuring. But now, I have no idea what to do. I am completely lost and it feels like I have nothing like I am completely empty inside and I am dyeing and falling apart. All i want is to not feel anything because when I feel I cry. I am sick and tired of having a make-up stained pillow. Tired of hurting. Tired of being broken and for me the only thing that  has been able to somewhat quench my thirst for apathy is a tool. And I do not know if I can quench my thrist or find a different water source. Maybe i am just not that strong enough to give it up. I just wonder if someday i will ever be…..