i started injuring in the fifth grade after moving to a new area were i got beat up all the time because i didnt want to do drugs. I saw injuring as a way out. A couple years later, when i was going into the seventh grade, my parents had me switch schools again but this time to a private catholic school. Well, that didn’t go over very well. I had one true friend there and to this day she still is my best friend. but her and i are going through the self harm thing together. but me home life is so bad that i just cant stop. Between my parents, the so called “friends”, and the people that do things just to put you over the edge, i just cant stop anymore. I used to only injure on my arms, but know since me parents have seen my arms, i started injuring on the back of my legs and stomach. but no matter how hard i try i cant stop and it seems that the only person that understands me is my best friend who is pretty much my sister, and my parents forbid me to see her. everyone thinks im crazy, and depressed, and everyone thinking that makes me depressed! why can’t we make people love yus the way we love them??? i mean a girl that i go to school with went up in front of my whole biology class and told everyone that i was a lezbian….which im not. not that i have anything against lezbians, i dont, it doesnt matter if you are gay straight bi whatever, but now everyone inclueding every guy in school thinks that. i get notes shoved in my locker and comments that just make me wanna quit life all together.
i no how hard movign is (we move ever few years on my family) and new schools are really tough, and i can see how that could lead to self-injury.
im sorry ur havign such a hard time, but i want u to know im here for u, and i know what its like in ur situation.
ur not crazy, and ur probly not depressed. im sorry things are so rough for u, and ur havign such a hard time, but it wont last forever…i no thats hard to believe now, but its true.
please dont say u wanna quit life, its so sad, adn things will get better, and then ud be missign out on a ton of awesomely great stuff.
Always know that someone cares for you, whether they are close or not. That’s why the blog is here! To let you know that others DO understand and DO care for you and your safety. Never give up on yourself.
Trust me I know how hard moving around is. I’ve been to about 12 different schools in my life. I can tell your having a really tough time but take it from me, it’ll get better. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Your not always going nto be stuck in your parents house and it’s the most freeing feeling. If you give up now you may never experience it. That what these forums are for so you can log on and “vent it out” as an alternative. We’ve all been there or are there so we can all relate to one another. So, as hard as it may seem, don’t give up just yet…
i know how u feel except the part about best friend understanding…my best friend when she found out she said,”no offense,but i dont wanna be friends with an emo cuz u might like turn me emo.” but dont end ur life ur parents and REAL friends wouldn’t understand!!!!!