so… iv binn realy realy happy today.. and even for a wile yesterday… my boyfriend is home frome college and my reasearch paper is allmost done and i dont know i am happy… i am… but where as when im sad i only sometimes want to hert my self or when im realy realy upset i want to, im happy and i relay want to hert my self, but i didnt, mostly becouse i am afrade of how it would hert evry one my famly, my boys…(all 3 of my best and most of the time only frends are boys…im a girl)… i didnt want to hert them i want to get better, for me to, im saposto be happy right??? i mean… arent i happy… i think i am, i feel happy for the first time in a realy realy long time, like legit happy, and yet i still am iching to hert my self, if ennything much worce than ever befor… im so confused… feel so happy yet im craving it so bad… i can go along time resisting, but it only lasts so long, im so afraid im going to hert myslef agen, normly i have more time between cravings,,, im scared that im getting worce when im saposto be geting better… i realy do think im happy
don’t ever doubt that you’re happy! just because you have the urge to hurt yourself doesn’t mean that your not happy! i’m glad that you have the strength to hold them off. and i know that even though, it seems that the urges are getting stronger and more harsh, talking is a big step in the right direction. your not in this alone, i’m always checkin the blog, i’m always here for you! stay happy! :), its always a good thing!
i feel the same way sometimes. it’s like i know i’m supposed to be happy, yet i still have urges. i’m kinda new to this so it’s good to know that i’m not the only one who feels that way. i am here for u and we can get thru this
hey, i get it to, ur having a really great day, and ur happy about stuff, and u still have these urges.
i dont think your getting worse (not that im a professional or anything) but if ur having more urges, i no its not easy, but i know u can get through it!
cnd is right. If you feel happy, go with the flow. Great job on not injuring, you’re on your way! Stay happy and remember that trying to help yourself and not injuring is a huge step in the right direction!
i feel the same way…….if u find ways to help in between cravings, plez let me know. but hey ur strong, and ur happy so u are on our way, chillax and stay that way cuz finding happyness isnt always easy so hold on to it 🙂