hey, i no im not the only one to think this or go through this, but i had to go to the doctor today, and i was told many ppl with the same conditions as i do can control their behavior, and i should try to do that for a while before i come back. i have been trying, very hard, for a long time. so my rents were talking to me tonite, and they dont no if i need to start seeing a counsilor now. i dont know how to tell them i need to, without disappointing them. they agreed to let me go a couple times so i could get new coping stratagies, but i dont know how much longer it will last after that. im so scared to go in the first place, but i want to get better so bad, and i dont know if i can do it on my own. ugh, i hate being so weak…