I injured today after lunch in the bathroom and while I was injuring I felt something different/ new. I don’t know how but I felt happy does this mean I’m becoming more dependent on this? I don’t know this new feeling made me feel completely different. I desperately wanna tell someone I come soooo close and then I chicken out. I don’t know why I posted but I don’t feel like “me” anymore I’m a ghost as far as I can see. I’m weak really and I hate being weak but no one else sees me like that I’m seen as a strong person. But I don’t know how.
i tryed so hard to tell my parents, i must have tryed about 60 times. i just couldent, so one night i just rote my parentce a letter, and then the next time i wanted to say something i just handed them the letter, it had all i wanted them to know in it, all i couldent say, perhaps it will work for you, plezz say something, or right something, plezz bring it to someones attenction. You Can Do This!!!
and plezz keep us posted on how you are, and how things are going
Just let it out… it will make you feel much better. Sometimes I feel like a stranger to myself, like I don’t know who I am or what I’m doing, but I know I can get through it and I know you can too! Keep trying and trust me, telling someone and getting help will make you feel much better, even if it’s scary at first! remember I’m here for you iff you need me!
I used to feel like this too. It became my “escape from reality”. It’s alomost like I was injuring to “zone out” and not have to be in the present dealing with the stress around me. I did become increasingly dependant on this new feeling of temporary freedom. Unfortuntely, it becomes somewhat addictive like heroin, where you only what another hit to get away from your life again. For me it only took a few years of this to completely spiral out of control and almost ended my life. Luckily, through hospitalization, S.a.f.e. and therapists, I was able to crawl through the wreckage of my life and find a new start again. please don’t wait until it gets that far along the path to destructiveness. Reach out now while you are young and can access the resources around you. I know that you can do it and make to through to a life without self injury. I know it because I made it too!