I injured today after lunch in the bathroom and while I was injuring I felt something different/ new. I don’t know how but I felt happy does this mean I’m becoming more dependent on this? I don’t know this new feeling made me feel completely different. I desperately wanna tell someone I come soooo close and then I chicken out. I don’t know why I posted but I don’t feel like “me” anymore I’m a ghost as far as I can see. I’m weak really and I hate being weak but no one else sees me like that I’m seen as a strong person. But I don’t know how.