I injure all the time…. whenever I’m angry at my parents or at life or just depressed. My parents don’t care about me – they only have me do chores and yell at me. My brother joined the army, and he moved away to South Carolina. I miss him, but I don’t want him to come home. My dad beats him up, but I’m the only one who’s seen him. Every time he walks by me I’m afraid, like he’s coming for me next. Also, my parents expect me to get A’s all the time… I’m afraid now because I got a C+ in math. I hardly ever do my homework because I’m always crying in my room, injuring, trying to calm down. I’m sooo emotionally stressed; I can’t take it anymore… my friends all come to me with their problems and I can’t help them I have my own to deal with. One of my friends injures too… I can’t stop her because I do it too and she knows that. People at school make fun of me, and the way I dress. My parents don’t let me go to any school functions, and my mom tells me I’m fat all the time. I feel so rejected. My injures stand out, but I don’t even wear long sleeves anymore. I don’t care anymore. If someone sees them, great. It doesn’t matter anymore. Sure, my parents will be disappointed, but I am disappointed in them. I’m afraid for my little sister too. I was adopted, so it would be weird to have to go to another foster home. I can’t leave, I can’t commit suicide, I have to stay and suffer every day, so I injure. It makes me feel better somehow, like I’m hurting them, everyone who criticizes, rejects me. I tell myself it is their fault – look what happened. I don’t know, don’t care anymore. My birthday is coming up but I wish I didn’t have one… I get maybe one present and my dad won’t show up. He doesn’t care about any of us – always yelling at my mom and I and my brother, when my brother calls my dad “disappears” somewhere. I CAN’T TAKE THIS!!!
hi, i realy think u sould tell some one, if u didnt want help i dont think youd have posted, i think that your so strong! remember that things can change at enny moment all you have to do is poot it in to moshion. you dont have to take this!!!
but you can make it thrue. i have faith in you!!!! plezz plezz keep posting and plezz plezz plezz try and make a chainge seak out help. your not alone altho it may seem like it. stay strong!!!you can make things better!!!
i agree with EB, if at some level u didnt want help, u wouldnt have posted.
i wnat u to know that im always here ot read your blogs adn tell you im listening, even if i cant be there to help rite next to you.
good luck!
thanks guys, i think i really do want help but i dont want anyone to know, im afraid of what people will think… they’ll be disappointed and maybe angry or surprised… im afraid of hurting other people because i know how it feels. thanks tho…
i know that life can rough….heck life sux…plan and simple….but u have friends that will always be there for u dramaqueen, they love you, and will help you through this. one friend can make all the differnce…and shes not going anywhere 🙂