it have been so long since i injured but today i got my hands on a tool and it felt good. I tried my best to hold back the urges i had but i was over whelmed that I had the tool in my hand and later that day whether this evening i was over whelmed. I ended up injuring.
hey, i think i know how you feel, when you go so long without needing your tool, and then you need it all over again, and you have to start over, but i have faith in you. i think you can do it. i know its hard, but your scars are part of you now, and you need to accept the fact that they are there, because then u may not feel the urge so bad when you see them. eventually they will fade, but until then, i have faith in you, that u can keep from making new scars.