tonight is not the night that i want to watch my sister baby. I am already over whelmed and ready to injure with anything i put  my hands on.  Sometime my family have a lot to do with me injuring myself. No on respect me or take me seriously. I am tired of letting them run over me. Other issue make me injure but this is my family that I thought suppose to love you and not get angry when you tell them no or maybe later. They act like if you tell them no that you are  mean as heck, but thats’s not so. I just want them to realize that I have feeling and that my feeling matter to. I’m sitting here wondering what i can find to injure and be done with it. I need to release. I need to scream. I wish my friend was woke