I got this news today.  It’s supposed to be good news.  And it is, sort of.  But it’s scary and overwhelming, too.  My husband got a job.  In Iowa.  My home is in North Carolina.  I’ve been here for 10 years.  It’s what I know.  It’s where I’m safe.  It’s where my therapist is.  And now we’re moving to Iowa!  I’m so scared, and I want to injure to deal with the fear and other emotions.  It doesn’t even make sense b/c I want to move, this is good news, we’ll finally have money!!  But it is change and I hate change.  My therapist says I’m not moving today, and I have to keep on living my life…not worry about the past or future…and that I’m not allowed to injure.  But all I want to do is take refuge in what I know, which is injuring.