I got this news today. It’s supposed to be good news. And it is, sort of. But it’s scary and overwhelming, too. My husband got a job. In Iowa. My home is in North Carolina. I’ve been here for 10 years. It’s what I know. It’s where I’m safe. It’s where my therapist is. And now we’re moving to Iowa! I’m so scared, and I want to injure to deal with the fear and other emotions. It doesn’t even make sense b/c I want to move, this is good news, we’ll finally have money!! But it is change and I hate change. My therapist says I’m not moving today, and I have to keep on living my life…not worry about the past or future…and that I’m not allowed to injure. But all I want to do is take refuge in what I know, which is injuring.