Alright, with the drama I already have in my life with the injuring and anorexia, today the worst that could happen .. happened. I was in my Science class and a girl saw my injuries when i fixed my jacket, and she SCREAMED it out loud. All of my friends, and pitty friends all came over to me and just called me weird and a freak and now they are not talking to me, I tried calling them and everything.
I can’t believe that happened .. All in the radius of around 30 seconds too. And then to make it even worse, my favorite friend Catarina .. came over to me and asked me why I did it. I stuttered and couldn’t think of anything to say. I just said “It’s O.K. you just don’t understand why I do the things that I do.” and then I just put my head down for the rest of my classes. rest of my classes = 7 hours long.
Also it’s not like I went and said Hey look I injured myself!!! Catarina asked to see and I refused. She grabbed me, and yanked my sleeve down and saw, and she just stared at me.
I don’t know what to do! I am not sure what to say either.
Oh geez, this does suck!! People are so cruel sometimes!
I don’t know what to tell you except wait it out. There is always going to be someone to make fun of and pick on in high school, and they’ll move on to someone else soon.
But it really sucks in the present, and you have to put up with a lot, and I’m sorry about that. It can’t help your urges any!
Try to stay safe anyway. Rise above it all!
Wow im so sorry that that happened. I had a friend see mine one day while we were at school. And i tried to play it off like my cat scratched me. Well that didnt work to well she told the principal. I got into big trouble. I agree with snoopyfan you will just have to wait it out. You might tell a trusted friend if you want to. You dont have to but it might be a good idea to just talk about it. If you just want to talk with us please keep posting here. I am here everyday and i am on aim if you have aim just ask and i will give you my screen name or my email address. Let us know how things keep going we will love to keep hearing from you.
Liz
I cut myself… And now I feel bad because I have the red scars that are going to last me my life.. I called catarina and she hung up on me the first time. Then She called me and left me a voicemail. I called her and left her a voicemail and I told her EVERYTHING, i couldn’t take it anymore. I am waiting for her to call me back. Just hearing her voice relaxes me. It makes me feel that im alive, like someone cares about me and im not just dust in the wind. I am so scared that the girl that saw my cuts will go to the principal. If she does go to the principal, what will happen?
Well what happened with me was that he called my mom and told her. He said to me that it wasnt good and that i needed to stop. He asked why i did it and i explained to him why. I also had to go to my counselor and talk to her b/c of what happened. He said he was scared for me and didnt like what i was doing to myself. And to top it all off he is my neighbor. But i didnt get into trouble they just wanted to help me. Im not sure if yours will react different but that what mine did. It will be ok.
Liz
Good for you for telling Catarina! I hope she can be the support you need. You deserve some support!
If anyone does go to the principal than he/she is gonna go straight to your parents…I know, it sucks. But maybe something good will come of it…like you getting to see a counselor and getting help. But it might be a hellish process to get there. Hopefully Catarina will be there to watch your back and give you all the hugs you need to make it through the crap.
Remember that adults freak out b/c they get scared and they don’t understand cutting. They may blame you or blow you off. They may try to shame you or punish you. No matter what, you have to be strong and ask for help.
Remember their snoopy, I am the most unpopular ugly guy in school, she is the best looking popular girl in the school. She has never offered me a hug not once in my life. I know it would help too.
i have read that about 19 million people are depresed and like 20% of that are teens, also like aobut 1 in ten teens will try herting them selvs. you are not alone not enny where, your not the only one in ur school or town or ennything, and if your the only one thay know of, that just makes you the braveist. im a member of a click litteraly refered to as the “regects”. i dont care what thay look like, the people who isolate u are ugly…..and i know it dosent mean much but i think that ur beautifull