i dont realy know how to do this or even what im doing… my boyfriend gave me this site and i am doing it becouse i think it might help… but im also doing it becouse i know it will make him feel a little better about being so far away(he is away at college). iv never realy done ennything like this befor and i dont even know if ennyone els can read this but if u can you should probibly know im dislexic so my spelling and gramer are pridy bad (sory). im 17 years old and will be attending college some where in augist. i dont want to be injuring wile im in college…i dont want it when i get older…. i dont want it now.
i started in late augist 2006 i think… i can go munths without wich is realy good but just when i think im done i just keep going back…. im afraid that this addiction will never end… the thought just reasintly set in that it is an addiction. i have two yonger siblings and this is not the example i want to set for them… i want them to be proud of me…. so when i disided to tell my parence…. i made them promis that my siblings wont find out if we can help it. i dont know if thats an erashinl request or not. just to night my mother told me that i have an apointment witha DR. next thersday… my bigist fear is that she/he will have to report me or something and my sister will find out. my mom told the DR. that i was having angsity about going away to school… she dosent think its an addiction i think she thinks that i make the choice, and i ges i do but im not realy shor to what extent. im terifid of the outcome, im terifid that if i dont go ill get worce, or actualy cause some seryus damige. im so so scared. and have no idea what to do or even how to go about it.i dont know is it rong to be scared??? i mean i did kinda choos this right??? i mean u chose it take the risk the first time right and i just got bad results???…i think the toughfist part is that she realy thinks that i chose it that its for attenshin or something…. it herts that she has no ida who i am-or how to help me….. i hadent hert myself since early december till this tuesday…. she asked me tonight when the last time was and i re aimed the conversation…. she wont understand, and it wont do enny good, atleast i dont think it would. i dont know how this works so i think thats fine for now…im prity shor ill b typing later
Welcome to the board. Its good that you asked for help and are trying to stop. Its hard to stop and i have been fighting with injuring for 5 years now. Your boyfriend is great to find this site for you. This is a great place for you to be. We all try and help each other out. Stay strong. I know how hard it is. Find someome you trust to talk to and tell how you are feeling. If its your boyfriend thats great or even your mom. ( I dont talk to my mom b/c we have a hard time getting along.) I have a counselor who is a good friend she does counseling for other women and girls. Anyways Please keep posting here I am here everyday and if you have aim or email just ask and i will give you mine if you ever want to talk. Let us know how things continue to go. Stay strong.
Liz
Liz is right with one part, you NEED to talk with someone, preferablly a close friend that won’t rat you out. Talking to your friend will make you feel so much better. And even sometimes, just ask for a hug. A simple hug can do alot.
I am not very good at giving advice, i still injure myself so I don’t know why I am giving you advice. But I know that these things hold me off for a little bit. People always tell you to tell your parents. If you do not want to tell them, thats O.K. I don’t tell mine. Just express your feelings here.
We are all here to help support you and help you feel better. Same as Liz, you can talk to me on aim if you’d like. Just keep posting here and keep us updated. – Chad
Ya its totally fine if you dont tell your parents i was just giving a suggestion. I dont talk to mine about it. Just find a good friend or your boyfriend and talk with them.
Liz
thanks, …and to chad, feel free to give me as much advice as you have its not being a hipocrit or ennything its caring…. i kinda think thats a part of this… that atleast i have come to care alot about others more than myself..
You don’t have to talk to your parents about it b/c it sounds like they don’t understand. But it’s really brave of you to take that first step and tell them about it so you can get help from the dr.!! I’m so proud of you!!! Now you can start seeing a counselor on a regular basis and have someone to talk to that you trust. You are so strong and have come so far already to have taken that HUGE step and told your parents that you need help. Yes, it is scary, but you have done the hardest part!! Now you are on the journey to healing and wholeness, and you are going to have all the resources you need to get help…Congratulations. I hope you know how strong you are!
You will definately find tons of support from this website. Glad to see lots of people on here! Hope everyone is doing well and for those who are new, WELCOME!
hey, im new to this too, but i do think talking to the ppl here is helpful. and i dont have AIM, but i have gmail, so if u want to chat there, im cool with that…
im real sorry ur mum doenst get it, im rents dont really either, but at least they dont think im doing it for attention, and i think its really good that ur trying to talk to them, even though its hard…thats fantastic!
i dotn know about u, but i didnt really choose this, it happened during class one day, i hurt myself , but i felt better after, so i kept injuring and it just kind of escalated), but even if u did, that doesnt mean u still want to, or that u deserve to suffer because u made a bad decision at one point…
i would try talking to ur bf more, and now ur 17, ull be able to get help without ur rents knowing u need it yet, and that will be helpful for u i think…
hopefully that helped u a bit!
lots a luv going ur way!!!!