last night was a very hard night for me. I went in a mood swing and i tried to control the injuring urge but it didn’t work. I injured and I was confuse. I never felt over whelmed about injuring before but this time i did. I felt it every-time. I broke down in tears, more confuse more scared about hurting myself more. I tried to stay focus but I kept thinking about my tool like it was going to keep me safe if i had it in my hand.
it good to have very close friend because with out my friend i would be lost right now or even just injure more than i am. I getting scared because with a drop of a hat I can lose control and start injuring . I’m afraid of my own self, and how dangerous I can get. please help me
I know the feeling. What do you do when the person you’re most afraid of is yourself?
It sounds like you’re at a new place with your cutting. It has a new meaning for you. New emotions are coming up.
Remember that you are still in control. You can still be safe if you want to.
Do whatever you have to do to be safe. Sleep at your friends house if you have to. Treat yourself really nice…buy yourself something new, go to a movie, read a good book, exercise, eat ice cream, anything you can do to make yourself feel safe and loved.
You deserve to be safe, and you are loved. You have the ability to keep yourself safe.
I believe in you.
has anyone figured out why we cut ourselves? They say it is feeling of shame or a release of tension….maybe anger at someone that we are afraid to express or discuss with others? can anyone help me to figure out why???slinzhelp
I don’t know why we cut but I’d love to know why. Your stronger than you think stronger than you know. I feel the same way as you but your stronger b/c you let yourself cry I don’t.
i didnt cry for so long…its not that i didnt want to its that i couldent, once in a wile i can even if its only a little wile it dose help, i have also found that perhaps making things helps i can make over 65 little paper beoats in 40min. its all i can make with paper but it can help fight the earge and keeps my mind bizzy aspeshly if im in a restront or with famly and frends…you can play with the napken and not the tool…your can stop even if its only for the moments, after a wile the moments add up