last night was a very hard night for me. I went in a mood swing and i tried to control the injuring urge but it didn’t work. I injured and I was confuse. I never felt over whelmed about injuring before but this time i did. I felt it every-time. I broke down in tears, more confuse more scared about hurting myself more. I tried to stay focus but I kept thinking about my tool like it was going to keep me safe if i had it in my hand.

it good to have very close friend because with out my friend i would be lost right now or even just injure more than i am. I getting scared because  with a drop of a hat I can lose control and start injuring . I’m afraid of my own self, and how dangerous I can get. please help me