Hey, this is my first day here at S.A.F.E. and just wanted to let some people know about me. I am very fat, and I am now anorexic. I injure to let myself know that I am real, and take away the numbness, I will be posting here every day. Also, my name is Chad.
Hi Chad,
Welcome. Are you at S.A.F.E. the inpatient program? I’ve been coming to this site everyday, too. It’s kind of a lifeline for me right now. This is the first time I’ve talked to a guy I didn’t know since I was raped back in December. And I’m only doing it b/c I know you won’t know who I really am.
I’m glad you’re making the journey to end self-harm with us. It’s worth it.
It’s o.k. that you’re very fat. And anorexic. I struggle with the food issue, too. After the rape I didn’t eat anything for 12 days, and then I passed out. My therapist said she was gonna quit working with me if I didn’t start eating again. So I did. But it’s still a struggle.
There are lots of ways to self-harm. But I want to quit them all. I want to live a healthy life.
I dont know what the S.A.F.E. inpatient program is, I just started going to this website yesterday, and I hope I will be able to stop my self-injury.
Hi, im glad im not the only new kid on the block… and you sound like a nice person to know even if it is anonomisly thrue the interweb, i hope we can all make this work.
Chad- SAFE is a 30 day inpatient/day hospital program where you learn skills and get counseling to help learn to live life without self-injury. If you can afford it, or your insurance will cover it (in the US many insurance policies do!) it is really something to consider, especially if you aren’t progressing well in individual therapy or need more intensive help. It’s like rehab for self-injurers.
Snoopyfan-
Have you had a chance to check out Pandys or After Silence? They are both message boards for Survivors. I’m a chat mod at Pandys, but AS is equally as good, but a bit smaller. I’ll get the links…
http://www.pandys.org
http://www.aftersilence.org/
They both also have self-injury sections.