how fast things change. Yesterday I was writing a post about how I gathered up enough courage to stop injuring. Today, I feel completely different. It’s all I want to do. Well, I was okay before I looked at my grades and saw that one went down a whole grade. Great, just great. I was doing really well for a while, but I guess the universe won’t allow me to be smart for too long.
So now I reallyyyy want to injure. I need to. But I know that I will regret it once I see another permanent scar that is not going away. That is really what is making me stop. Those never fading scars. I guess its better that I don’t, but I sure as hell miss it.
You’re so right. My mood swings go from hour to hour, minute to minute! I was so excited to read that you wanted to quit cutting…and it’s understandable that now you’re thinking about it again. That is completely normal. I’m glad you haven’t done it yet.
Try to keep in mind that all feelings are temporary. In fact, feelings only last an average of 3 min. unless you refire them somehow. You can last through 3 min. of urges! Let your feelings wash over you like a wave. Waves come and go…you can’t hold on to them or prevent them. They just come and go. They’re intense when your head is underwater, but then they go over and you can breathe again.
Just because you have a thought doesn’t mean you have to act on it. It’s just a thought. You can have thoughts about wanting to cut and not act on them.
These are things that I find helpful for myself. Maybe they’ll be of use to you, too.
Thanks snoopyfan. Your words are really encouraging :]
Saraphina,
You Rock! Your comments on the other posts always lift me up…I love what you said about coming here when you’re strong and posting to help others b/c it makes you stronger. Thanks! 🙂
Aww thank you, snoopyfan!