Thank you both for your responds. Sometime I feel like when I talk to people they can’t relate to what I’m going thru or feeling. I need to thank my good friend for finding this site, because I see I’m not along. I pray and hope that I can stop one day because if I don’t I want be here. I sit at home sometimes and just think about what I can do more to easy my pain. But nothing positive comes in mind. All that comes to my head is injuring.  I’m sitting at home know think about it. help me stop