I told an amazing friend of mine, everything, a few months ago.

..From that point on, she’s been attempting to convince me to ask for help.

And, if only because she means so much to me, I e-mailed the English teacher I had last year (a woman I’ve talked to before, and who has been through some of this).

I didn’t say anything–incriminating–but my Guidance Counselor at school was told, my friends were called down to talk to her (as well as my parents), and I’m not really sure what’s going to happen, now.

I’ve tried to diffuse the situation, and have lied to my parents, so that they don’t realize just how much they don’t know.

I still don’t know if I’m going to be in counseling, or anything.

My parents won’t talk to me.  And, this is all terrifying to me.

Because, I didn’t ask for help.. I just couldn’t handle my friend being disappointed in me.

So, I don’t know.  I’m so scared, of all of this.

I just want it to all go away.