i almost got hospitalized yesterday. it’s really unfair. i should not get sent to crisis just because i injure. i know it’s not safe. i’m at the point where i think my life is worthless and i’d rather die. i don’t know what to do. i just want to die and sometimes i think no one should care. i feel worthless and useless. i feel like i’m alive for no reason. i need help,b ut sometimes i don’t want help because i feel comfortable this way and i think it’s okay for me to die. i really don’t care about my future. i feel like it’ll only be  more suffering. i’m afaid.