i almost got hospitalized yesterday. it’s really unfair. i should not get sent to crisis just because i injure. i know it’s not safe. i’m at the point where i think my life is worthless and i’d rather die. i don’t know what to do. i just want to die and sometimes i think no one should care. i feel worthless and useless. i feel like i’m alive for no reason. i need help,b ut sometimes i don’t want help because i feel comfortable this way and i think it’s okay for me to die. i really don’t care about my future. i feel like it’ll only be more suffering. i’m afaid.
I’m glad you’re here, and you are not worthless. You have value, and I don’t want you to die. I’m also glad you didn’t get hospitalized yesterday. I hate the hospital…it’s a scary, gross place, and I agree with you that we shouldn’t be hospitalized just for cutting.
Also, there are better things to do than cut. You know in your heart that that is true, and I’ll bet you want a better life for yourself. Maybe, I hope even, it’s not that you want to die, but that you want to live, just not with so much pain.
I am sorry you hurt so much. Your pain is valid. I believe you that you hurt, and you have reason to hurt. You don’t have to cut to express your pain and anger.
There is a path that leads to a life worth living…to hope and a future. Even though it doesn’t feel like it.
Feel free to share your pain and anger with us here. We’re listening.