um… hi, i’ve been injuring for almost four years with breaks in between. i’ve been to multiple pysch wards for child and adolescent and i’m turning 18 in april, but i still haven’t stopped SI. i have a lot of sevices in place right now, but i still don’t know what to do. it’s like i want to stop, but i’m afraid of what will happen to me if i do. i’m so comfortable with SI and it’s part of my life now. like something i need to go through everyday. even though now it doesn’t really help with anything , i’m really undecisive. i’m afraid of what life will do to me if i stop. i know that it sounds stupid, but it’s true. right now i’m headed toward getting hospitalized agian and i don’t know what to do. i’m afriad of living.
I’m so sorry you’re having a hard time right now! I started cutting as a teenager, and I still struggle with it now that I’m 30 yrs. old! That’s the danger of self-harm. And here’s the thing…it is NOT worth it!!! The adult psych wards totally SUCK!!! I even got raped on one (by another patient) last December. If you continue on the path of self-harm you will not have a life worth living. I strongly encourage you to seek help now before it gets any worse. I have spent almost 10 years in a therapy called Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT). It saved my life. I also think the S.A.F.E. program is amazing and helps so many people. Please look into something to get yourself some help! You don’t want to be like me…30 yrs. old, with a husband and young child and still struggling to have a life worth living.