um… hi, i’ve been injuring for almost four years with breaks in between. i’ve been to multiple pysch wards for child and adolescent and i’m turning 18 in april, but i still haven’t stopped SI. i have a lot of sevices in place right now, but i still don’t know what to do. it’s like i want to stop, but i’m afraid of what will happen to me if i do. i’m so comfortable with SI and it’s part of my life now. like something i need to go through everyday. even though now it doesn’t really help with anything , i’m really undecisive. i’m afraid of what life will do to me if i stop. i know that it sounds stupid, but it’s true. right now i’m headed toward getting hospitalized agian and i don’t know what to do. i’m afriad of living.