Hi Everyone,

I’m new to this site.  I’m 30 years old and I still struggle with self-harm of many forms.  I started when I was just a kid, like 7 or 8 years old.  I have a history of sexual and physical abuse by multiple perps.  If I could warn young people about the danger of starting to self-harm and how addictive it is, I would.  If I could tell them that they might be 30 years old and still struggling instead of living life, I would.   I have been in Dialectal Behavior Therapy (DBT) for 9 years…it is supposed to really stop the self-harm and help you build, “a life worth living.”  I know DBT saved my life numerous times, and made it so I’ve been able to hold down a job and put my husband through graduate school, and helped me be a good mother to my son.  But I’m wondering what the heck is wrong with me that I’m this old and STILL struggling!!!!  My family will be moving to IA soon, and there is a S.A.F.E. Alternatives program close to where we will move.  I’m thinking about trying it, but I’m scared to death to try something new.  I’m also really scared to do the inpatient thing…I just don’t think I can…I was raped while I was an inpatient on the psych ward of a hospital in December.  Another patient raped me just before he was discharged, and now I don’t feel like I could go back to any type of inpatient program.  So, I know a lot of you are younger than me, college and high school students…but if you have any advice, I’d love to hear it.  I, too, made it through high school and college as a straight A and B student who injured herself to cope with the stress.  It’s not worth it!!  It creates life long problems!!