i dont know who all out there are boys and who are girls, but what i have noticed is that guys like to take advantage of girls a lot. i know this because i have lived through it and i know many people who have also lived through it. it really sucks to wake up everyday knowing that the guy that use to be your baby is now holding some other girl in his arms. it hurts, it sucks, its hard to live with, and it makes me want to die. i have been going through this now for 15 months. yes i know, he broke up with me 15 months ago then why am i still hanging over him like this. well, its because i loved him. i dont care what any of you all say. you all have no clue how hard it is to live with myself. he was my first love. and i think that if i didnt love him that i wouldnt still be waiting for him. i told him that i would always wait for him and i meant it. he put me through a lot. but i still love him, thats love right there. me n him met in the summer of 2006. we got together on june 26,2006 we broke up october 17,2006. we only went out for 3 months and 3 weeks, but it seemed like forever to me. me and him had our good times and our bad times, but i never thought that it would end the way it did. he broke my heart and left it there to rot. i hate this. me n him tried to be “friends” for a while. we still talked everyday and he still told me he loved me, even though he had a girlfriend. it was hard for me to talk to him because what he did still hurt. it ended out that he cheated on me everyday with one of his ex girlfriends and many other girls. he just couldnt remember every single one of them. he just stayed with me because he knew how much i loved him and he wanted to get in my pants. but still after all of that, i still talked to him. he played with my emotions and pretended like he cared forever. one day he called me and told me what he “did” with some chicks at a party, he was going out with the girl he broke up with me for ((he cheated, again)), and i tried to kill myself. he called me and told me that he didnt want me to die. that if i died me and him would never go back out, well that got me. i hate love him. i wish that i could hate him. after that night my mom called his mom and told her to tell him never to call me again, yeah right he didnt listen. i swar, i think he wanted to ruin my life. well, it didnt matter because 3 days after that night my mom took me to ten broeck mental hospital. i was there for like 3 months, i got out right before christmas. it turned out he was going out with someone else. he lied to me and a lot of other people. he finally got what he deserved. she cheated on him 7 out of the 8 months they went out. with his best friend, who was her ex also. but they are still going on and off and she always cheats on him. she has never been faithful to him. i dont get it. i wish he did.
First of all just by the way you write I can tell you are YOUNG and you are in a phase I call puppy love. I fell for a few myself in my younger days and it REALLY broke my heart. You need to realize that you cannot control what someone else does but you can control what you do. NO man or anything is worth trying to take your life. Life I certainly can say is not easy and it is like your playing a game of cards every day. What you are dealt you may not be happy with but I bet you pick up the next card in hopes that it gives you a better hand. Sometimes your lucky and sometimes your not. My theory is the more you play the better you will get. I don’t mean in any way to go out and play on peoples emotions because what you give out will eventually come back at you. So as you can see from YOUR statement he seemed to get a taste of his own medicine. Just know that you are a much better person than he is or any one else playing in that particular hand you have been dealt and in the end you will get the better card and win. You almost have the game won and I don’t think you even realize it. He is getting a taste of his own medicine (as he deserves) but you need to get up, sit at that table and deal yourself a new hand of cards to play with and play them with knoweledge of the mistakes that you have learned from this hand and the others that you feel you didn’t win. You WILL one day get that hand that will make you completely happy. And one last thing – you need to learn to place the blame were it rightfullly should be because it was him that cheated on you not the other girls cheating on you. Good luck in your next hand you are dealt.
concernedparent642543:
While I don’t agree with the way you phrased your first sentence, as it seems to minimize the importance of the emotions love can bring at any age I think you have created an amazing response to this post. I have not agreed with everything you have posted but am quite impressed with this response.
In fact it is difficult to add upon.
All I can say is that if someone is able to hurt you that badly and move on then they don’t deserve you. As hard as it may be to hear and believe when you love someone, you never deserve to be treated like that. You will indeed find the person you deserve, someone who is able to return the love you show them and bring you all the happiness you deserve. It can be impossible to see the future getting brighter with a broken heart, but I promise that it can.
im in luv 2, with my boyfriend. the other day he said “you know what babe, i love u.” i think hes just sayin that cuz my bff told him i was inlove with him a couple of days b4 that. i asked him bout it the other nite and he said if i cant except the way he feels, then we have 2 brake up. but then i said i would kill my self if u ever broke up with me. and thats when i finally told him i cut my fukin wrist cuz of him.