I’ve been reading about this illness that I seem to have. They say that it occurs in younger females.  I’m 34 and have been stuggling with this deamon for many years.  I at times feel that I don’t have the strength to continue, but don’t have the desire to die.

I haven’t injured myself in a while, it’s becoming routine to have my girl friend check me. I don’t like her to see my injuries, it hurts her. It was everything to be able to tell her after three years.

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I felt sad today, to the point of helplessness. I couln’t stop crying. I had such a desire to SI my skin, seperate the pain from my mind and body. After I was done, the emotional pain was gone.

Why am I so screwed up? Where does this come from?