Downward Spiral.
Posted by Skye ".BarelyBreathing." Rae on August 16th, 2012
I thought I had it. I thought I was done with all this and I could finally live my life normally. No more secrets. Then, yesterday, out of no where, I pick up this tool I hid for this exact reason. I was laying in my bed, reading, and I dunno. I guess I felt lonely? How pathetic. I injure. Always an even number of injuries. And now I sound like a lunatic. I hate myself for giving up. I was going so good. SH free for at least two months. Then, boom, I get the tiniest bit lonely and decide to Harm. Pathetic.
Tags: giving up, pathetic, Self Harm
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Relapse is a part of recovering from SI. I only lasted two days when I first tried to not SI myself. I’m currently on my fourth month of not SI myself for the second time (after 2 and a half years of SI). You can do you, do not give up!
Feeling lonely does NOT mean you are pathetic, I know I have felt that way on my road to not SI myself many a time. It is one of the many things thrown at you during free SI time.Don’t beat up on yourself for failing to not harm.
If you want to talk email me: liamnutt@gmail.com
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Relapse is a part of recovery! It does not make you pathetic. I only made it a few days before I gave in when I first tried to stop. It is very impressive that you made it two months. That just shows how strong you are. You can do it!