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Hello to all

Posted by superamiG3 | October 3rd, 2015

Hi. I’m pretty new to this well the blogging thing not really the self injuring thing…

I haven’t hurt myself in about three years and every day is a constant struggle but lately I have just wanted to so badly that it kind of scares me. Not kill myself, no. Just injure. That’s all. I just kind of need help figuring out how to not do that. I don’t even exactly know why I’m typing this at the moment or what I think I’ll gain by doing this, but I dunno I just kind of need advice. Friends aren’t an option, I don’t want them to worry about me. Family has never caught on…Anyways, any advice out there? It’s getting tough and I don’t know how to occupy myself so I won’t think of it….Okay, thanks…

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It’s Been A Long Time Since I’ve Been Here

Posted by Kohl | September 28th, 2015

It’s been a very long time since I’ve been here. The only reason why I’m back is because of a health project on non-profit organizations that promotes/helps people with health problems. I took the mental health route.
I relapsed since the last time I was on here and I’ve been hurting myself ever since. Whenever I get the opportunity to, I hurt myself, and it’s gotten to the point where it’s bad. I went into the hospital twice because of my bad choices.
I feel like I should feel guilty, but I don’t. Maybe that’s a bad thing.

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Trying to find strength

Posted by lovemenow | September 23rd, 2015

I am extremely scared that one day I am going to relapse. It is my ultimate fear and also my ultimate desire. I know I shouldn’t want to self injure but it is like this craving that does not stop. I have been without self hard for almost five years, but I still find myself having to keep the demons at bay everyday. I guess I just feel a little lost and I would really appreciate some advice. I can not even tell people in my life that I am thinking about the possibility of relapse. How do you keep moving forward after a long day?I

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is there any help out there?

Posted by help127 | September 20th, 2015

Hello.¬† I live in southern wisconsin.¬† i am 33 yrs old and have self harmed for past 5 -6 yrs.¬† Does anybody know of any treatment places for self harm or groups for it?¬† Anything??¬† I can’t seem to find anything other than other states where my insurance is not accepted.¬† I have been in this bad cycle for 5 years now and I want it to end but I need help. I know I cannot do this alone as I have been trying for a very long time now.¬† Any words of advice, places of help, support groups for self harm, any info would be greatly appreciated.¬† thank you.

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help getting my daughter help!

Posted by tml2015 | September 11th, 2015

I need some advice on how to help my 17 year old daughter who self harms. She was admitted in the past for Suicidal Ideation but doesn’t admit to that at this time. She has a diagnosis of Bipolar/anxiety disorder and doesn’t take her meds as prescribed and is really opposed to them at all. Off and on for a few years I have noticed some “clumsiness” -marks on her that she insisted were all an accident or something of the sort. Since she was 11 I have had behavioral problems with her and each time it’s worse, Lately, as her behavioral symptoms are worsening and she has been having problems with her medications and stopping and wanting to refuse them or adjust them on her own, we have noticed scars on her. Most recently after a break up with her boyfriend. When I asked she told me it was like four years old. Her ex boyfriend reported to me that she had been injuring for the entire three years they were together and wrote a statement that he tried to get her to stop and she said she was addicted. When I try to talk to her about getting help, she refuses to admit she’s doing it or that she’s even having problems…always someone else. Stops eating, eats too much…harms in some way…..something.
In Illinois, the law is on her side since she is 17 and I cannot make her get the help she needs. Her psychiatrist recommended that she get an assessment so she started freaking out and wants to seek psychiatric care elsewhere and has that right to do so at her age, I’m told. So as her mother…even though she’s been not taking her meds as prescribed, been displaying some paranoia probably due to that and some self harming behaviors, recommended by the psych she needs to be assessed, I’m out of options. Your S.A.F.E Alternatives program seems to be a wonderful option for her.
I need to know how can you help me talk to her or the right way to get her there? I saw in the information that it has to be voluntary, but if I can’t get her to admit it as being a problem, I don’t know how to do this. We live in Illinois but some time away from here would not hurt her at all. She needs someone who’s neutral to her life and knows about these problems that she doesn’t have to lie to. I just don’t know how to get her to agree to do this.

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Posted by lookingforpeace | September 3rd, 2015

It feels like life can be a game leaving me thinking that all of this here in this world is so superficial; why anyone would continue to do anything – what’s the purpose? Why do I continue to take the medications that are suppose to make me feel better, or why do I continue to attend therapy sessions? Yes, it all helps for now, but what happens when I’m done with therapy and medication? I’ve returned to self – injuring again, and although it happens less frequently now, it’s something that I don’t foresee ever going away completely. Even when I wasn’t engaged in my main form of self – injury, a lesser form took its place for times when the urge was too much. It’s a crutch. Something that I’ve leaned on far too long. I am ashamed that after all these years, I sill self – injure. I’m confused about why it is I still feel so detached from life to such an extent that I can no longer see a purpose. Life seems so superficial; so contrived. We live, struggle though the materialism that is now life, and then die.

It’s these moments of clarity when I’m reminded of how self – injuring becomes so alluring. How other addictions can become so consuming. It’s easier to mask or avoid those difficult moments of detachment than it is to endure them. Or it’s the opposite – because of these moments, I self – injure just to feel something, feel real, feel less superficial.

I feel alone and hopeless.

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New Pain

Posted by jesh | September 2nd, 2015

I have not injured for 15 years, and all of a sudden I want to so bad. ¬†A short history, I injured so bad at one time I removed all sharp objects from my living environment. ¬†I never looked for any type of assistance before. ¬†Don’t get me wrong, I have had urges over the years but I have been able to fight them. ¬†This time I am not so sure. ¬†Maybe just talking about it will help.


Posted by healing | August 24th, 2015

I haven’t been here for a while but I feel the need to be here now because I am feeling huge rushes of various emotions and it is freaking me out. Wow. Calmer already. What I have after that, I guess, is a need to tell my story. Which isn’t something I’m up for preforming, as much as I’m up for looking at it. Which is really weird because I am very open about a lot of parts of my life, though I’ve had some extreme experiences– but I guess I’m not open at all about this. Even entirely within my own mind. It’s very good that I have medication near by. I know how to reach out. I haven’t felt tempted by this for a long time, not very strongly… give exception to a few times. All I know for sure is that it has come back up on my radar, and it wasn’t there before. By “before” I might only mean a couple weeks of total absence from my radar but nothing much has happened for a few years now. I think I just keep getting better and better. I know it. But it’s wierd when it pops back up. That’s when I have to remember that it isn’t fate. It’s coming from within me. And all just stay really close to all the recovery skills. They are a rope of sailor’s knots to hold onto when it’s rough. Maybe I am applying them just automaticly when I’m doing well. Or maybe I don’t really need them when I’m doing well. …but to keep them all lined up. Maybe that’s part of revisiting this space. I can’t believe the person I’ve become– I just am more comfortable taking up space all the time. Asking for help used to be impossible. First off, you can’t ask for it if you’d even know you need it– that you exist and you have rights. I’m a Mom and my kid had a rough time through all the recovery. He’s probably starting college this week. Things could always go south, but they are looking very very north. Thanks for letting me check in.

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I’m new at this

Posted by howdoichange | August 18th, 2015


im very new to this I honestly didn’t know this was something common. There has been only twill situations that have brought me to this. they were both relationship caused. I know that all if not many of you have problems that are a lot worse, but relarionships are my only weak spots. I have had terrible things happen too my family and myself. The only time I find myself wanting to hurt myself was when my boyfriend for a year and a half broke up with me one day and I just began to injure. I didn’t injure to kill myself I just like the pain it distracted me from what was going on. Nobody knew what was going on. And it’s back now the urge to feel pain so my emotions feel numb. I have been dating this guy for almost 4 months now he is from my home town I knew who he was and his cousin and I are good friends but he is in the military Army to be exact and he is stationed in Washington. I live in a small town and there is a lot of talk. His cousin on one occasion told him that I was cheating or about to it’s NOT true as insane as it sounds I am in Love with him I want nothing more than to have a future with him. Now this past Friday a “friend” told him something similar that isn’t true I have been loyal and faithful he has had me in a limbo of being with me or not and its taken a told on me emotionally I don’t know how to handle the emotions this time I caused myself another injury. Everyone thinks it was an accident things have only gotten worse with him and I REALLY want to inflict more pain on myself but I know it’s wrong and I shouldn’t what do I do what should I do ? Help me please

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Posted by AmandaBeth | August 9th, 2015

I haven’t been on here in over 2 years, but so much has changed. I’ve gone through a lot of ups and downs, even having to stay in the hospital for a week when things got really bad, but I’m so proud to say that I’m over a year clean now. It’s taken a lot of work, but somehow, I’ve managed. This is a battle that I still have to fight day to day, but I’m getting stronger, and it’s so much easier now.

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